Today I find myself in a mood. A certain mood that I love when I get in, it's neither bad nor extremely good, it's somewhere in between. When I get like this I typically keep to myself more than normal and I listen to music. I used to always turn to music when I needed to reflect, feel, just be. I would use lyrics to describe where I was, what I was feeling, relate, gain a sense of comfort knowing someone else captured my exact moment and put it into words better than I could.
When my husband and I first started dating we would stay up for HOURS drinking wine and listening to a million different songs, old and new, and telling stories as to why they were so important. Me more than him but it was a way of getting to know one another beyond what we had already discovered.
I feel a sense of peace, contentment, just being. I think so many things, LIFE, happen so fast all around when you get a moment to just literally 'be' you should cherish it. My mind and my body seem to hardly allow for that anymore...so today, I take advantage of my mood.
My background music for the day seems to indicate I'm getting into that holiday spirit, and all the love and warmth that comes with.
What's yours?
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Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Full Circle
This morning I was getting ready in my bathroom with my little one playing on the floor. Entertainment for her consisted of pulling everything out from underneath the cabinet which includes: a box of panty liners and tampons (which then get thrown like large pieces of confetti), sunscreen, various facial masks, boxes of soap, cotton balls, lotion bottles, hairbands, and bath salt. That was the inventory list this morning. And as I sit there blow drying my hair, watching her destroy my bathroom, my mind drifts to "this time last year..."I was fat. I was hot. I was pregnant.
I was off work at this point, as I think I left around August 16th, her due date being September 4th. I remember EVERYONE telling me to sit, relax, and just enjoy the downtime because "oh my gosh how things are going to change for you!!!" Bleh, whatever. I tried, I really did, but it's hard to relax when you are continuously trying to understand the magic behind pushing something the size of a bowling ball out of your vagina. Ughhh. I watched hours and hours of A Baby Story, Birth Day, etc...a and cringed and cried during each episode. My husband would come home from work, walk in the door and look at me as if to say, "okay I love you, but you are borderline pathetic." I would always pause my day for lunch, meet girlfriends or Dom, and enjoyed getting out for a bit, but do so vividly remember how the clock just ticked ever so slowly in the days leading up to her birth. I would lay on the couch and play out how it would all go down. Would my water break in public, we run home, sprint in the house, grab our bags, and head to the hospital like it happens on the movies? Would I be home, wake up with contractions, or would I have to be induced? I played out every scenario over and over. I ate spicy things, had sex, walked the stairs a million times, did jumping jacks, everything but drink castor oil...although if it was guaranteed I was in.
This time last year...I had 13 more days before I met my beautiful baby girl who changed my life forever. Who now, a year later, is redecorating my bathroom with feminine products.
What were you up to this time last year?
Friday, June 19, 2009
Me, Myself, & I
(Everything with B's tubes went great - super fast, easy, nothing to be scared about! Thanks for the well wishes!)
Remember long ago in Facebook land a trendy, yet annoying, little thing called 25 things was going around? Yeap, jumped on band wagon.
I'm making some new friends here in Blog land and I'm a little boring today so I thought I'd plagerize my own work and post it here. I must love myself.
Here goes it...
1.) My friends tell me I am a picky eater but I think they are crazy. I just don't like onions, or lettuce on sandwiches. I don't like pineapples, or oranges. I only like mayo and tomatoe on a cheeseburger and think blue cheese on anything is disgusting. That's not picky, just eating in good taste.
2.) I always seem to run low on wiper fluid in my car. It beeps at me to refill constantly. Maybe I am obsessed with clean windshields.
3.) I own over 50 pairs of shoes.
4.) At one point in my life I thought a spiral perm was hot.
5.) I always yell at Dom when he drives the car. Therefore, I drive almost all the time.
6.) When I was in 5th grade I choreographed a dance to "Opposites Attract" by Paula Abdul and sold tickets to my parents and neighborhood friends to come see my show.
7.) I'm too chicken to get up and do Kareoke but will sing LOUDLY to every song as others perform.
8.) I love to travel - so far on my list is Mexico, Italy, Greece, Turkey, and Egypt. I've been to many places in the US and can't get enough of NYC. Can't wait to get to back to Europe.
9.) I craved anything blueberry and diet root beer when I was pregnant.
10.) I think girl time is essential.
11.) I believe people should have good manners. Table manners especially. If you chew with your mouth open or smack loudly I will most definitely let you know it's rude and annoying.
12.) I was raised to be tough. I once took a softball to the mouth when I had braces. My dad looked at my mouth full of blood, carefully seperated inside of my mouth from bracket and told me to get back out on the field.
13.) I have grown up around hunting and fishing my whole life. I was 2 years old when I sat in my first deer stand. When my brothers are home there is almost always something dead in my parents backyard.
14.) I volunteered at Brackenridge Children's hospital for one summer while in college and will never forget that experience. One of the days I was there my only responsibility was to hold a newborn that had been abandoned. I was her form of human touch that day and for that I am forever grateful. I wish I could find her mother and punch her in the face, but then again, I'm sure it was a blessing.
15.) In college my roomate and I got a Sonic drink almost every day.
16.) Said roommate mentioned in #15 and I got a note on our door once that said "Shut the F*** up" for always talking so loudly on our cell phones on the back deck of our townhome.
17.) My first concert was Debbie Gibson, followed shortly after by New Kids on the Block.
18.) 2006 was a shitty year for me.
19.) My brothers and I are very close. That's not to say I've completely forgiven them when they threw a screwdriver at me or put dead bugs outside my door.
20.) I love a fire in the fireplace.
21.) I think floating the river with good friends, cold beer, and hot sun is the best "day" vacation.
22.) You must have a good sense of humor to be my friend. People that are too serious bore me.
23.) I love Broadway plays. When in NYC we almost always pick one night to get dressed up, go to a nice dinner, and a play. The absolute perfect date.
24.) September 8, 2008 I became a mom. I have made a vow to myself to raise my daughter with manners, to teach her to respect her elders, to work hard for what she wants, to appreciate things, to have perspective, do everything in moderation, and to pursue her happiness. I promise I will try not to contribute to the pool of next generations that think MTV news is news.
25.) I am happy.
25 things about you? Do share...
Remember long ago in Facebook land a trendy, yet annoying, little thing called 25 things was going around? Yeap, jumped on band wagon.
I'm making some new friends here in Blog land and I'm a little boring today so I thought I'd plagerize my own work and post it here. I must love myself.
Here goes it...
1.) My friends tell me I am a picky eater but I think they are crazy. I just don't like onions, or lettuce on sandwiches. I don't like pineapples, or oranges. I only like mayo and tomatoe on a cheeseburger and think blue cheese on anything is disgusting. That's not picky, just eating in good taste.
2.) I always seem to run low on wiper fluid in my car. It beeps at me to refill constantly. Maybe I am obsessed with clean windshields.
3.) I own over 50 pairs of shoes.
4.) At one point in my life I thought a spiral perm was hot.
5.) I always yell at Dom when he drives the car. Therefore, I drive almost all the time.
6.) When I was in 5th grade I choreographed a dance to "Opposites Attract" by Paula Abdul and sold tickets to my parents and neighborhood friends to come see my show.
7.) I'm too chicken to get up and do Kareoke but will sing LOUDLY to every song as others perform.
8.) I love to travel - so far on my list is Mexico, Italy, Greece, Turkey, and Egypt. I've been to many places in the US and can't get enough of NYC. Can't wait to get to back to Europe.
9.) I craved anything blueberry and diet root beer when I was pregnant.
10.) I think girl time is essential.
11.) I believe people should have good manners. Table manners especially. If you chew with your mouth open or smack loudly I will most definitely let you know it's rude and annoying.
12.) I was raised to be tough. I once took a softball to the mouth when I had braces. My dad looked at my mouth full of blood, carefully seperated inside of my mouth from bracket and told me to get back out on the field.
13.) I have grown up around hunting and fishing my whole life. I was 2 years old when I sat in my first deer stand. When my brothers are home there is almost always something dead in my parents backyard.
14.) I volunteered at Brackenridge Children's hospital for one summer while in college and will never forget that experience. One of the days I was there my only responsibility was to hold a newborn that had been abandoned. I was her form of human touch that day and for that I am forever grateful. I wish I could find her mother and punch her in the face, but then again, I'm sure it was a blessing.
15.) In college my roomate and I got a Sonic drink almost every day.
16.) Said roommate mentioned in #15 and I got a note on our door once that said "Shut the F*** up" for always talking so loudly on our cell phones on the back deck of our townhome.
17.) My first concert was Debbie Gibson, followed shortly after by New Kids on the Block.
18.) 2006 was a shitty year for me.
19.) My brothers and I are very close. That's not to say I've completely forgiven them when they threw a screwdriver at me or put dead bugs outside my door.
20.) I love a fire in the fireplace.
21.) I think floating the river with good friends, cold beer, and hot sun is the best "day" vacation.
22.) You must have a good sense of humor to be my friend. People that are too serious bore me.
23.) I love Broadway plays. When in NYC we almost always pick one night to get dressed up, go to a nice dinner, and a play. The absolute perfect date.
24.) September 8, 2008 I became a mom. I have made a vow to myself to raise my daughter with manners, to teach her to respect her elders, to work hard for what she wants, to appreciate things, to have perspective, do everything in moderation, and to pursue her happiness. I promise I will try not to contribute to the pool of next generations that think MTV news is news.
25.) I am happy.
25 things about you? Do share...
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