We've made it through the last week. The visitation was sad, the funeral was sad, but beautiful, and her burial was sad. We did our best to celebrate her life, but taken on such short notice at such a young age, it's hard to find the immediate happiness. My Aunt and Uncle have a long road ahead but they are surrounded by some amazing support. I guess there is some silver lining in all of this, and that is people. It's been humbling to see the outpour of support. Perfect strangers that heard of this tragedy stepping up and offering to clean their house, cook food for the next several weeks, take care of their ranch. The abundance of beautiful flowers that were sent for Lena was breathtaking. Everywhere you looked was another bouquet, sent from all over the country. People made photo montages, programs, wrote things in honor of Lena. The line of cars from the church to the burial was as far as you can see. Strangers pulled over on the side of the road as cars passed took their hats off, bowed their heads, put their hand up to their windows as if to say, "I'm sorry." Friends of friends showed up at the ranch for after the service to help with the serving of food, cleaning, all the little things. My immediate family has received so much support as well, text messages, emails, phone calls. So, thank you everyone for thinking of us and keeping Larry, Lisa, and Lena in your thoughts and prayers.
I have found what peace I can in all of this, and will hug my baby, and those I love, tighter every single day. A new found perspective on the choices I make and how I choose to live. I will aspire to be as radiant and loving as little Lena was.
Good night Lena, rest in peace sweet baby.